Feeling Better

Ok, so I might be the "glass half empty" person, but I like everyone to believe otherwise. I am feeling quite a bit better. I wanted to post some pictures, but the rambunctious two year old that keeps climbing into everything when I leave the room has kept me from downloading pictures lately.
For recent news, our renter has moved out. We are exctied to have the extra space, but I am a bit nervous about the extra cleaning. I sure wish robots were more affordable.
Caleb is doing well in school. He is really enjoying reading and is trying hard on his spelling and math. He is going to be Ben Ten for halloween.
Trever loves school and is really doing well. He is starting to read and does fairly well. He is going to be Zoro.
Joseph is loving preschool and is officially potty trained. The latter is a day to be celebrated with joy and glee. He is excited to be bat man.
Kamden is so full of energy. His personality is a lot like Trevers. He is always looking for trouble, but has the cutest angel face, and smile. He is going to be a lion.
Our sweet Cami is growing ...... way to fast as usual. She is so happy and easy to make laugh. It is Joseph's favorite past time. She is very talkitive and giggles all the time. She is now four months. For halloween, I would rather she be warm and inside, but we may put the lady bug costume on for a bit..... just long enough for her to puke on it. : )
The dog is still a puppy, but a big one. She is potty trained.... I think. And she loves to be outside (very good) She is well behaved for Jason and I, but the kids have a harder time with her when she get hyper. Joseph is probablly the one with the most control with her. He gets treats for her and she will calmly sit for him and behave for him. ......
The guy is here to replace the water filters, the kids are screaming and the baby wants attention. I guess that is all for now. Thanks for all the warm thoughts. It helped me feel better.

Life

Well, I have used the excuse of being really busy for some time now. The truth is, I have been having a down period and I really didn't want you all to have to endure the whining. I love my husband, my children, my life. I know that doing foster care is what we (my family and I ) are supposed to be doing for now. I love having all the things that we have and I feel very blessed. That being said, Jason has had alot of migrains lately and it is difficult for us all when Dad is sick. I worry like crazy, and that only increases my stress level. Going from three kids to five over night has had its challenges. We are just getting into a routine, and I know that any day now DCFS is going to call and tell me to pack up yet some more of my children and give them to someone else. The minute these children come to me, I feel like they are mine, and I have now given away 8 children. When these two go, it will be ten. I don' t want sympathy, and I get tired of people telling me I need to quit. I would like to, but every time we don't have a placement I feel very unnerved, agitated and restless. Maybe this is just what it is like to go crazy.
I have come to the conclusion that I am a "glass is half empty " kind of person and that really bothers me. I would like to be the other way.....
We have been sick around here for the last little while with different things. I have parented enough kids to know that that is just how it goes, but it causes stress too.
Jan, I miss you. I know you are busy with work and family, me too, but I miss you.
Like I said I have been in a funk for some time now. Not depressed, just not Jubilant. I guess that is just life. I know that it will get better and I really do recognize my blessings everyday, and am very greatful. I love you all and miss a great many of you. I check all your blogs regularly (unless you are lurking and I don't know who you are) and pray for all of you.
The baby needs fed, Joseph wants to play a game, and the oldest two are due home from school soon. I hope you all have a "glass more full " day today.